Texas Andersons

I am still mourning the death of my grandmother.  Every time I have moments to myself, I think of her.  Every beautiful song that I hear, I cry.  Put both instances together… and I’m a mess.  The last meltdown was yesterday.  I was at the studio for several hours painting the front porch.  I had k-love on the radio.  I had time to think; I had time to praise; I had time to pick apart that day we let her go.  “Cry Out to Jesus” by Third Day came on.  And the next thing I knew, I was on the ground sobbing, a mess of tears and snot.  (I’m laughing about it now)  But the pain (which I have never felt before for anyone) made me think about my grandpa.  He and Grandma would have celebrated their 60th wedding anniversary this past week.  And I can’t imagine how he’s feeling, to have lost the love of his life so abruptly.  I decided that I should write him a letter… and expressing myself here is the start of that.  May it all be a part of the healing process.

I am also distraught over Ben.  I just don’t know him any more.  He stole money from a friend; he’s disobeying, lying, talking back, sneaking around; he’s being so mean to Evan.  As punishments, he’s lost toys and privileges.  I even took away the door to his room.  We’re not sure what he’s going through, but I hope it’s a phase that ends very quickly.  We just can’t have him acting like this and being disrespectful when school starts!  Praying for him constantly…

And Evan’s two (terrible 2!); Nathan and I seem to be too busy for each other; walking pneumonia had me down and out for almost a week.  It’s all been just a little too much. 

Whew!  Dirty laundry and obstacles!  Now, where am I finding my joy?

I LOVE my new studio!  I LOVE my job!  I hardly bring any income home to help my family, but it gives me such great reward and such self-worth.  Photography is now such a big part of me.  My clients and partner-in-crime (Emily) make me smile.  My images bring me joy.  I am so grateful for this opportunity to serve our community and serve God. 

Now, if the rest of my life could get back on track… 

Our 4th of July was fun.  The evening was spent at our usual spot with our friends Mark, Erica, and Madison… enjoying popcorn, cake, lemonade, and FIREWORKS!!!

But the week leading up to the 4th and this past week were spent giving Shutter-Happy its independence.  Nathan, Emily, and I spent a few days viewing a handful of possible studio spots… and we found an almost-perfect place!  It’s an old home, built in the 1920’s, with charming details, including a footed bathtub!    So we signed the lease, moved in, decorated, and updated.  And as soon as we finish painting tomorrow, we begin seeing clients there on Monday!!!  I can’t wait!!!  Shutter-Happy blog for photos!